By Celeste Cox
Being the exception is tempting.
When people tell you your first draft will be ugly, you
might nod while internally thinking, NOT MINE. Mine will be the exception.
Maybe it will be.
But here’s the thing. These people aren’t just random
strangers on the street. Here are some of the people telling you your first
draft will be ugly:
And they all kind of know what they’re talking about.
I know, I know. But you want to be the exception. You want to go your own way. That’s great. Power to ya!
But here’s a crazy idea: Try it.
Try writing ugly. I guarantee that you will write faster,
you will write more, and therefore you will get in a whole lot more practice.
You will then become better, and eventually your first drafts will be the exception. Your first drafts
won’t be quite as ugly anymore.
Point is, you’re a writer. You need to write.
I recently attended an ANWA writing retreat. In two and a
half days I wrote 24,823 words. I even won a nifty prize. I was shocked. I
never imagined that to be possible. For someone else—anyone else—yes. But for
me? And here’s the kicker. Around 20,000 of those words won’t be in my novel. Another
novel, or short story? Maybe.
I know you might be thinking, what a waste then. It's tempting to think that way, to turn it into a defeat, but all of that writing was practice. Practice I had no idea I
desperately needed.
It was around those 20,000 words that I finally
found my character’s voice. I found my writing style and now writing is fun
again. It’s not painful knowing the words are ugly. It’s almost exciting
knowing that I’m a rebel against my inner critic and that I’m writing despite
the ugliness. I’m writing!
It'll kind of
felt like jumping off the high dive for the first time in slow motion: your stomach in knots as you wait in line; staring at your toes and the ground, anything but the actual high dive; the climb to the top; inching your way to the edge; feeling it wobble beneath you; the thought of turning back blaring in your mind; letting yourself fall and the adrenaline rush as you plunge into the cool water; the overwhelming desire to jump again and again.
Once you get past the editor in you, you won't remember why it was terrifying or why your fears kept you from doing something so rewarding. You love writing. Bad or good, writing is an adrenaline rush all its own.
If you spend 75% of your writing time editing, you’re an
editor.
Write, create, then edit.
Be a rebel against your inner critic. Write. Write ugly. Write good. Write gibberish. Write that ugly first draft.
I think I get this, I think but then maybe I don't
ReplyDeleteI love this, Celeste! It's so true! We just need to write! Great job on writing all those words! I'm in awe of all you accomplished!
ReplyDeleteThank you. I've recently been trying to regain my writing mojo after a difficult pregnancy. This helps.
ReplyDeleteThank you. I've recently been trying to regain my writing mojo after a difficult pregnancy. This helps.
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