I am a firm believer that our Lord wants righteous writers out there. There is a need for wholesome entertainment and for books with values. But even with this knowledge it can be hard to accept that I could be one of those writers to aid in this cause. Who am I? I am no one. Yet when I turn to the Lord, He reminds me that I am His daughter, and that title alone should erase my self doubt.
Even with the knowledge of my divine heritage, I still find myself struggle as I am working plots and story lines. After my chat with Jenni (I hope I'm not giving her a big head.. not that I think that is possible), I can see that the times I struggle the most are the day/weeks/months that I have let myself go spiritually. Maybe I pushed my scripture reading aside for some extra time to writer, or I decided my visiting teaching could be put off this month. It is now that I realize the importance of this question...Why would the Lord put His trust in me, if I refuse to put my trust in Him?
As I allow my Lord to guide, my life and my writing I know that things will succeed. Who am I? I am His daughter, His servant, and His clay to mold as He will. Heavenly Father is a caring patriarch. I am certain that when I allow Him to carve me as I should be that I will become more than I thought I could be.
The worst enemy to creativity is self-doubt. ~Sylvia Plath