Saturday, December 12, 2009

Choosing the Right Path

Last Sunday, on my personal blog, Day Dreamer, I wrote about missed chances. What if while going down the right path, something happens and your journey is cut short? What if you make a mistake or someone else makes a choice that changes the course of your life? That's how I felt when I lost my contract with Valor, like maybe that was my one change to get published and that the right path had been cut short.

As the comments came in, there was one that spoke directly to my heart and made sense to me. Teri wrote:

With trials and disappointments, I have often remembered an article I read in the Ensign, almost 20 years ago. It was an article where a man wrote in about an experience he had with his son, being lost in the mountains. They had prayed at a fork in the road and felt very impressed to take one of the roads. After about 5 minutes of driving, they came to a dead end. When the son asked his father why they would feel impressed to go down a road that dead ends, the father responded something like, "The Lord told us that, so we would know without a doubt which way to go. We could have driven for hours and been doubtful if we had taken the correct road we know exactly which way to go."

While not the same as your situation, perhaps now you know that Valor wasn't the right path for you to take. Now you will never have to wonder if you should have gone there....because you know.

As I thought about what that meant, I wondered if the Lord led me down that path in order to teach me a lesson. Maybe my book wasn't ready for the national market. Maybe all the rewrites Valor had me do was to prepare it for bigger and better things. And maybe now that I'll be on the RIGHT path, I won't ever look back and wonder if Valor would have been better for me. Now as I go down this other path, I can know that the Lord is leading me where I need to go. The hard part is having patience and letting things happen in His time. I was so close to seeing my dream come true, that starting over with query letters, agent research and the nerve wracking waiting game is going to drive me insane.

But even knowing all this, I think having faith in the Lord, that things will be okay, is the hardest for me. I had absolutely NO reservations with walking down that other path. I wasn't afraid, I wasn't nervous, nothing. I knew in my heart that it was the right thing thing to do and I put it in the Lord's hands. Day after day, I prayed that he would guide me in the right direction and I turned it over to him completely. So now . . . I guess I don't trust my instincts. Will I make the right choices in the future? Will I do something that messes up what the Lord has in store for me? Is that what happened this time? All I can do is work my tail off to do everything right and hope He has a Plan B.


  1. Thanks for this post! It makes me think of the march of Zion's Camp. They failed! But that march trained the leaders who would take the Saints to the Salt-Lake valley.


    Every person who wants to be a writer should go see that film. It made me rethink my life.

    At the turning point of the film, the main character must make a choice between what she wants, a life-long dream that she's slaved and wished for, and what she truly needs to be happy, and she realizes that THEY ARE TWO DIFFERENT THINGS! Oh, it was good.

    You may not have what you want yet, but you've already got everything you need.

  2. What a wise post. I'm sure the Lord has it all worked out for you. It is just like you said... in His time.

  3. Patience is the hardest part. That's what I've learned in this path to publication. I can imagine how hard your experience has been and the way you are handling it is a great example to me in faith and determination.

  4. Ooh, I love Teri's comment! And I agree. Sometimes He does lead us somewhere as a *test* or to see if we're willing to follow his answer just so He'll know in the end that we were serious and we are ready for the big blessings.
    We all have a huge group hug for you...
    Just remember: Something that I've been reminded of the last few weeks since joining Valor and people have been coming out of the woodwork to tell me--Valor only hires awesome writers... they turn down way more than you and I would ever believe. So be grateful. If you were going to be published once, then you are an AWESOME writer. Hang in there. IT WILL happen again.

  5. Love that thought, Christine. Thanks for sharing. I KNOW you are an awesome writer, and if possible, an even better person. Keep at it, you'll make it, and we'll all be cheering you on.

  6. Love Rebecca's comments on this. I'm going out to see that movie w/my kids this week, can't wait!!

    Teri & I were mission comps in Uruguay. How the Lord put us 2 together so many years ago & how we met up again later is a marvel to me.

    I know this: The Lord puts specific people & experiences in our lives to help us grow in ways we wouldn't, couldn't otherwise. And having patience? That's also part of the deal.

    Keep this truth in your heart, that you are so many more footsteps ahead of aspiring writers like Teri & myself. We are both writers, resolute with becoming more, but still have so far to go.

    Look at your journey, every step, and see how far already you've come. So far.



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